159. don’t wanna be sly & defile you.

January 2nd, 2012 by Jemi

And so we roll into 2012. I didn’t celebrate this year, I was going to go for a few drinks in a local pub with some of my friends, but for a start I’d been at work all day, secondly I’m not huge on getting drunk these days, and thirdly, I was piss poor (for reasons you’ll find below). But I had a nice night regardless.

My New Years Resolutions for this year are;

o1. Lose weight.
o2. Buy a freaking wardrobe.
o3. Get a haircut (3 years is long enough without one)
o4. Stop worrying so much.
o5. Accept that I cannot pull off pale lipstick, and embrace the dark.

Optional o6. Meeting a nice boy would be nice… :>

Christmas was fine, went by quickly, narrowly escaped being ill again for it this year by being sick the week before, meaning I had to take some time off work whilst I felt sorry for myself and took as much cold & flu remedies as possible without giving myself liver poisoning. The downside is, as I haven’t been working for my current job for 2 years or more (so close & yet so far), I had to take my time off unpaid, so I am currently very, very skint. It’s going to take a couple of pay days to get myself comfortable money wise again. Still, that’s life.

After whining and stomping my feet about not being able to lose any weight, I did manage to lose 2lbs, however I think with the re-introduction of mince pies and other festive food, it’s safe to assume that those 2lbs have definitely gone back on. But it’s fine, one all the leftover Christmas food has gone, I’m going to be very strict with myself, and I also hope to introduce a gym membership into the mix and actually go. So in theory, this time next year, I’ll be so slim and toned, if somebody shot me, I’d be able to deflect the bullets with my rock hard abs. HAH. But seriously, it is something I have to do for myself. I felt so good about myself when I lost that tiny little bit of weight, and (coincidental, I’m sure) I was hit on by an attractive man on a night out, which I now regret not following through with. However this all came to an abrupt end when I saw the photos of myself from that night (the one on the left being the only passable photo) and now I’ve gone back to feeling shit about myself. Ahhhh.

I’m still very much in a all work, no play mode. I find it very difficult to relax when I’m not at work nowadays, I think a lot of it is to do with shift work, a prime example of this being finishing work at 9pm, with an 8am start the very next day. When I wake up, I never, ever feel refreshed from a nights sleep, and if I get up before 10am, it nigh-on kills me. I prefer to keep my days off now for lazy days, or visiting my parents. I did make plans to see some people here and there during days off, but the last two people I have arranged to meet up with, both just bailed with no warning. So now I can’t be bothered. I’d rather stay in my pajama’s and watch Coach Trip anyway.

Still, despite everything, I hope to get back to my usual chipper self soon enough. I am meeting up with one of my best friends, Emma tomorrow for a catch up, and getting a Café Nero’s white chocolate mocha before I really do have to cut out everything that is remotely delicious.

On a side note, I finally started playing Assassin’s Creed: Revelations today. As always, the game is gorgeous. But what on EARTH have they done to Altair/Ezio/Desmond’s faces?! They all have beady eyes and buck teeth now. Not a sexy look. D:

♥: Tired.
♪: Korn ft. Skrillex – Narcissistic Cannibal

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158. pure reason revolution – 2003 – 2011.

December 9th, 2011 by Jemi

So on Saturday 26th November, I saw Pure Reason Revolution for what will be the final time.

And of course, mandatory set-list:

ACT ONE:

Aeropause

Goshen’s Remains
Apprentice of the Universe
The Bright Ambassadors of Morning
Nimos & Tambos
Voices in Winter / In the Realms of the Devine
Bullitts Dominae

Arrival / The Intention Craft
He Tried to Show Them Magic! / Ambassadors Return


ACT TWO:

Blitzkreig (with elements of Disconnect)
Black Mourning
Les Malheurs
Valour

Deus Ex Machina
Last Man, Last Round

Fight Fire
AVO

ENCOURE:

In Aurélia
 The Twyncyn / Trembling Willows.

So, that now means that I will never see Golden Clothes/Disco live *sob*, and I was surprised about a few of the songs making an appearance on the list (LM, LR), and some not making the cut (Apogee), but overall it was a great set. It was lovely to hear He Tried to Show Them Magic! live,

and in fairness, when you get a band that has very few mediocre songs, it was always going to be difficult to make a set list that everybody would be happy with.

I must admit, I wasn’t all that up for going to see them on the night, due to being at work since 8am (which meant a 6am wakeup call), however, I knew I’d regret it if I didn’t go, but when I got there, in the same spot I always stand when I see PRR and I felt my anticipation raising higher and higher, I knew it was worth the long day. I sang along to every song, I danced, I shouted a request for Golden Disco, the band were on top form and looked happy, it was pretty damn amazing. You know you’ve had a good time when you wake up the following morning feeling like you’ve been hit by a bus, and your throat is red raw! I only got to speak to Jamie from the band after the gig, but he was really lovely. He’d remembered me from other shows, and asked me if I was going to the London show (I couldn’t unfortunately, and it’s now something I bitterly regret. If only I had more money!) and gave me a hug, so I was riding pretty high on that after the show.

But really, almost 2 weeks later, has it really sunk in, that it’s the end for Pure Reason Revolution. Which is a real shame, because their latest album was the most polished I had heard them, and I feel bad that this band never, ever got the attention that they really deserved, which leaves a bitter taste in my mouth knowing that was one of the primary reasons they split, with all of the band members on good terms with one another. Maybe it’s selfish of me to say, but I almost feel hard done by that I’m losing my favourite band because they just couldn’t get the break they were looking for, despite having one of the most solid, loyal fanbases I’ve witnessed.

So naturally, since the gig I’ve been playing all 3 albums on repeat, and I hope that one day they may decide to give it another crack and reform. Just remember guys, those electricity bills aren’t going to pay themselves.

♥: Roasting.
♪: None.

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157. where have all the good men gone & where are all the gods?

November 8th, 2011 by Jemi

I’m still alive; I’ve just been lacking in an internet connection to update.

I’d love to say that I’ve been leading an extraordinarily exciting life, but really, I haven’t. I wake up, I shower, get dressed and put make up on, I have brunch (I’m never awake for breakfast), roll into work, roll back home, have dinner, watch The Big Bang Theory, have supper, then go to bed. I know, I know, I need to steady the f**k on. All this excitement could lead to some sort of blood vessel bursting or something.

I do however, have a few invaluable tidbits to share.

Number 01. No matter how cold it may be in your home, having a scolding hot water bottle on your stomach isn’t the best way of warming yourself up. It causes fluid filled blisters, which you then have to cover up with dressings until it heals OR you get a reaction to the adhesive, and you get left with scarring. Lessons have been learned, let me tell you.

Number o2. I am 100% man free, having now ditched Chris/C/Postie/Pirate/Canijust for good. I haven’t actually felt anything towards him for a good 2 years now, but still kept him around just incase I had “needs” that I wanted meeting. But it’s pretty hard to be attracted to somebody who you know is hitting on other girls, rather unabashed, but he broke the golden rule by hitting on a good friend of mine. There is a line that you do not cross, and he just went and did that. So after kindly telling him to fuck off hitting on my friends, he then tried to pretend he didn’t know what I was talking about, and when I wasn’t having any of it, he then deleted me off his friends list on Facebook and has severed all contact with me. Oh, men. : ) But that’s fine. He just beat me to the punch.

So now I have got rid of all the rubbish that I was carrying about with me for the past 4 years, and I can start afresh. Well, I say that, but really I mean remain consistently bitter about everything and not being able to trust any men at all, dying old and alone, yet still secretly thinking it’d be nice to have a fella.

Still on the subject of men, I mentioned in my last post of an ever growing infatuation for Spartan from Gladiators, and as beautiful as he may be, I can’t overlook the fact he’s off the market and have moved onto someone else…

…Sasha Gavrik from Spooks. Ooft! Brooding, moody, Russian, all-black-ensemble-wearing, lovely baby-blues and a great bum. I actually didn’t think that much of him initially, but then I had a dream (from watching excessive Spooks, I expect) that I was part of MI5 and the CIA were planning an assassination on me, and it was Sasha that came to my rescue.  So now my days of wanting a young Assassin from the Holy Lands to take me away in the night are long gone, it’s all about Russian spies now. And the accent works for me on so, so many levels.

Number o3. I have started a bet with a work colleague. If I lose a target amount of weight before she does, she’ll give me £50 to spend on a new outfit to celebrate, and if she gets there before me… well, she gets the satisfaction of being slimmer. In the first week, she lost 5lbs. In the second week, she lost 2lbs. In the third week, she put on 1.5lbs. How much have I lost in the past 3 weeks, on a diet of nothing much more than soup, porridge and salads?

…Nothing. Absolutely nothing.

Fuck my actual life.

If anything, I’ll probably be putting on a pound or so this week, considering that I went out for a meal with my parents yesterday and necked several White Russians (if only I meant the other type) and ate a huge plate of Denver fries and steak.  But it’s actually ridiculous that I’ve lost nothing.  When I have my internet connection sorted, I’m going to keep a food diary on here for a month, complete with the calorie contents (if applicable), and if it all seems in order to me, then I’m going to go and cry at my doctor.

I’m going to the hospital tomorrow, which should be my final visit, all being well with my magic toe. Details on that to follow.

♥: Cold.
♪: Klassify ft. Sensus & Devonne – Bounce

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156. floating away.

August 25th, 2011 by Jemi

I am very, very bad when it comes to updating.
I always intend to, and then I remember 3 vital things.

1) My life is very dull.
2) I don’t get much time to update.
3) Did I mention my life is dull?

So I’ll get up to speed in picture form.


I turned 22. Picture blurry due to excitement of a white chocolate and raspberry cake (also because of a 3 second exposure.)


I was given flowers by a customer for, well, just doing my job, but doing it darn well. Typically my manager or co-workers didn’t see any of this, so all my hard work on this particular occasion goes unrecognised!


I dyed my hair reddy-purple. Then it faded to a reddy brown, with some severe roots. Then I dyed it a dark brown, but it turned black. I’m currently saving up for a colour correction. I remember all too well the horrors of trying to outgrow black hair from when I was 14.


I have found someone to replace Michael Weston. Although, like babe Weston, he just recently came off the market as well. However I’m not as emotionally invested so I am certain I can appreciate his face and still get on with my life.

That pretty much does sum up life right now. I’ve been sociable once or twice, but mostly don’t rock the boat. I also found out gammy kidney, turned out to be gammy nerve. And I’m feeling pretty melancholy. I almost definitely need a man. But I will get over this in a day or two I expect.

♥: Melancholy.
♪: Blaqk Audio – Between Breaths (an XX perspective).

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155. you’re so hypnotising; could you be a devil?

May 23rd, 2011 by Jemi

Long time no update.

I am currently waiting in for a workman who I don’t think is actually going to show up, but I don’t want to get into Assassins Creed: Brotherhood and then he shows up at a good bit. That said though, he was due to come between 8am and 12pm… and it’s now 1:15pm. So perhaps to play Ass Creed: Bro Ho after this will be fine.

So I’ve actually had a bit of a life over the past few weeks. I met up with my old house mate Natalie, who I hadn’t seen since I’d moved out, and it was so good to catch up with her again. Things where we used to live were so messed up, with everyone constantly passing the buck when it came to bills, stealing food etc. that our friendship maybe got a little strained. But it was good to see her and to reassure that there were no hard feelings between the two of us.

I also went to the hospital for a review on my magical toe. Whatever it is, it’s officially benign, but I’ve had to go for reviews and checks on it because if it is going to turn into something, it’d turn into a sinister and aggressive form. To be honest though, I’m more than happy to keep going back, I’d rather have the reassurance that it’s still fine than wondering in the back of my head. Though since the operation I had on it, the new toenail has been pushing it out, so whatever it is is now almost fully outgrown. I guess there’s probably a quarter of an inch left on there? But the doctors are pleased with the progress so far. I have to go back in 6 months and if all is still fine by then, that will probably be my last visit in regards to it.

As of Saturday night I am on holiday for 2 weeks which is blisssss. Because it is my birthday on Thursday and I won’t be in, I got my birthday presents from my boss & co-workers on Friday, and I was genuinely floored and what they got me. They got me some really great stuff and I was so, so touched. I saw in the start of my holiday by going out with Shakthi and Steph who both work with me. It’s the first time I’ve gone out with some co-workers, it’s something I’ve wanted to do for a while to get to know them better and I had a really great time, although I’d been at work until 8pm so I was kind of tired before I even left to go out, they’re lucky that they finish a lot earlier than me so they have more time to get ready and relax. Still, it’s always a problem for me. Working Saturday nights is such a social life killer! Not that I have much of one anyway…

I’m going to give this guy another 30 minutes and then I’m booting up Ass Creed. Until then I’m going to do some research into how to decorate my bedroom. I want to go for the boho look, but don’t really know how to go about it? So far my research hasn’t taken me very far. Bedroom fail?

♥: I need to pee.
♪: Katy Perry – E.T. (without Kanye West)

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154. stepping outside into the garden.

May 4th, 2011 by Jemi

It always astonishes me how well I am able to see when I put my glasses on. It’s like I upgrade my vision from standard definition to high definition. I think I’m due for an eye test at the end of this month… more expense! This is the first eye test I’ve had to pay for so I have no idea what kind of price range I’m looking at. I was looking at the price of contact lenses though, in case my eye sight has deteriorated yet again, and the prices for Toric lenses (which I would inevitably need) are obscene!

I am either going to be blind or.. no, I will just continue being blind I think.

Life still remains static. I like it that way. Bar a few things I wish I could tweak.

♥: Tired.
♪: Bill Withers – Ain’t No Sunshine

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153. bring it on, you can bang the drum.

April 24th, 2011 by Jemi

Happy Easter everybody. Eating an easter egg for breakfast is never a good idea. I gave myself belly ache.

I decided to remove my 100 day photo challenge from here, although I am keeping it up on Facebook, it was too time consuming to upload it on here and looked a little scruffy too. So much for encouraging myself to blog more.

Life is pretty static right now. The same woes I usually have apply, but I don’t have any additional ones (spare for making a bit of a tit out of myself yesterday) so I’m pretty good right now. I wish the wasps would just sod off though, and the ice cream man would make a visit down my street.

♥: Hot.
♪: Hadouken! – M.A.D

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152. battle looms, your doom; injustice entombed.

March 3rd, 2011 by Jemi

Recently I’ve been watching a one of the rock music channels on TV as they’ve been doing Nu Metal hours. Nu Metal got a ton of shit in the past for being well, angsty, crawwwwling in my skiiiiin-like. But this is what was around when I was growing up and I loved it, and I love hearing it still on TV. It makes me wish I was still young when all I had to worry about was whether or not I could be bothered to roll into class or not. But anyway I’m digressing. As a result of watching Nu Metal hour, I’ve also ended up seeing one or two new bands that I don’t mind (amongst a wave of God awful bands. When did rock music get so bad?), one of them being Framing Hanley. While they’re not one of my all time favourites, there’s some elements of their music that I like. And Lollipop is my new favourite sexy song. They’re actually playing in Norwich 3 days after my birthday. If I find someone to go with I might go and see them. It’ll expand my horizons or something.

♥: Achy.
♪: Framing Hanley – Lollipop.

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151. you know you’re not the only one.

March 1st, 2011 by Jemi

It’s not cancer.

My appointment at the hospital was messed up so I wasn’t able to see the consultant. But I was assured that it is nothing sinister. I’m going up next week to see him and talk to him properly about it then.

♥: Creative
♪: Evanescence – The Only One (Alan Farias Remix)

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150. stomp, stomp. i’ve arrived.

January 24th, 2011 by Jemi

So, as you may have deducted from the photo of my dodgy lookin’ foot (i’m pretty certain it’s the angle), I’ve had my op.

The op itself was horrible. I had to have two injections of local anaesthetic before the op began and considering I’ve had renal colic which is meant to be worse than childbirth, the two injections came a very, very close second. That was probably the worst part of the operation, but I’d psyched myself up about it so much, I couldn’t stop shaking. I was convinced I’d be able to hear a ‘crunch’ as the toenail came off, and could feel it, but I couldn’t feel a thing. They placed forceps on my toe to see if I could feel it, and I felt absolutely nothing, it was amazing. I bet the surgeon had a fun time with my exceptionally sweaty foot though. After the op I was still shaking so badly I was made to have a cup of coffee and something to eat to try and calm myself down. I was still shaking though for about three to four hours afterwards though.

I took the bandages off the next day and was expecting my toe to look a mess, but apart from the injection marks, my toe looked really nice and neat. I couldn’t see the stitches and the horrible black pigmentation was toe. It was just like how it used to look pre-gammy. Ahh.

I will be finding out the results of the biopsy tomorrow. I really, really hope that it’s good news and I can put it behind me now.

Apart from that, I haven’t been up to much. I helped to move all the stuff from the old pharmacy to the new one over the weekend. It looks a lot neater, but its much smaller and we have no where near as much counter space to store all our stuff, (when I say ‘we’, I mean the counter assistants) which kinda sucks, but it’s nice to have everything all pretty and new.

♥: Tired
♪: Lacuna Coil – Angel’s Punishment

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