Archive for April, 2008

55. please don’t talk to me, please just let me be, please just set me free.

Saturday, April 19th, 2008

To summarise my week:

Monday:
I skip Mr Kettle’s first lesson, and promise to be in the afternoon class. I bring in my entire photography collection in to my form tutor for her to help me select which images to go into my portfolio. She announces to her entire class my interview. I gloat and feel shy and stupid all at the same time. I search high and low for my marked essay, my form tutor remembers my photography tutor, who is resting up at home after having an operation on the previous Friday took my work home to look it over. He lives 20 miles out of Norwich. I multitask phoning my tutor, and printing out my portfolio in a crazed frenzy. I now owe the school £27.84 in ink money. I tell Mr Kettle I won’t be in his afternoon lesson. I see the hurt in his eyes. I drive 20 miles out of Norwich to a small village containing residents that look vaguely reminiscent to the hillbillies in The Hills Have Eyes and pick up my work.

Tuesday:
I am a vegetable until 12:15. I watch Loose Women/Scrubs and anxiously wait for 2:10 to arrive so that I can get to my NSAD interview at 3:00. I go to the main building and am directed to a completely different building, carrying 2 sketchbooks, an essay, a minature sketchbook and a portfolio up to the very top floor. Interview starts. Interview goes horribly wrong. Interviewers seems remarkably bored with me. I scowl all the way home.

Wednesday:
I tell everybody my interview went horribly. I come home, I have a response from NSAD. I have been accepted. I am in shock.

Thursday:
I am still in shock.

Friday:
I bum about in photography until 11. Dan visits to show me his new pooch. I go for drinks with Kayleigh & Freya. I go see Ben. I yawn alot because I’m relaxed. I get butterflies from kissing him.

Saturday:
Sibling comes over. I play Burnout Legends and get horrifically addicted. I get snappy when Burnout Legends is taken away from me. I watch Mr & Mrs, and Britain’s Got Talent.

Sunday:
Presumably will be spent making and preparing my presentation for the next day. I wonder if it would help if I knew what the presentation was on, and what I’m supposed to be talking about. I also wonder how I can waffle on about something I don’t know for 10 minutes without looking like a tit.

♥: Okay.
?: Grendel – Zombienation (V.2K5)

54. oh, escape to inside of the mirror.

Friday, April 11th, 2008

One server fuck up later, and I have returned onto a new spiffy database.
A database, I’m hastened to add, which was empty. So I’m ever greatful to Chad who realises that our webhost sucks monkeys and made a back up. Either way, I hope this solves the internal server errors that kept cropping up.

In my time away, I have spent every morning getting up at 5am due to the fact we had workmen here fitting a new central heating system, and have found a new addiction to Shockwave games, i.e Sissyfight (though this is nothing new), Diner Dash, etc. However, I absolutely, 100% draw the line at paying for those. They’re fun as online games, but… nothing more. I’d honestly be surprised if anyone has paid for one of them.

So anyway, today was pretty awesome. I had no teachers at all today, so I took it upon myself to do some sketchbook work and go see my form tutor in regards to my portfolio. She told me to come and see her on monday with all of my work, but I already had a good idea of what images I wanted to use, so I printed out a contact sheet of them and showed them to her, at which point she said “They’re (NSAD) going to love you”, and two people from a few years below me looked at this contact sheet over her shoulder, one girl said “Damn, this is why I could never do photography!” and the other guy looked me square in the eyes and told me I was amazing. I was blown away, I really was. It’s totally boosted my confidence and morale, and I’m feeling much more confident about this interview.

It doesn’t stop me from bricking it though.

Time to check who’s on Sissyfight, and then sleep for me, I feel.

?: Tired.
?: The Mars Volta – Inertiatic Esp

53. hands are red with your blame

Friday, April 4th, 2008

…I have an interview with NSAD.

15th April.
Oh shit, oh shit, oh shit.

♥: Nervous
♪: Unreal Tournament – SuperFist

52. but how can we win, when fools can be kings?

Thursday, April 3rd, 2008

Aiko Final Piece…So I finally have something to talk about.

Tuesday I went to London and met with Aiko to take my final pieces for Unit 3 (to the right is a preview of one of the shots I think I will use. I’m still editing and playing around with them as of right now so I shan’t post any more nor any larger until I’m fully satisfied with them). Thank you again Aiko for helping me out and I do apologise for being full of fail when it comes to directing, it’s just something I’m not comfortable with and being bossy isn’t in my nature. D:

Anysnootch! This is the main thing my entry is about- the next day (Wednesday) I was due to take some photographs for a friend, so me and my best friend Freya went to meet her and she didn’t show up. :/ So I took that opportunity to take some photos for another photography project I have to do Stephen Shore response(photo on the left… obviously edited out the registrations for privacy reasons, but I’m really proud of how this turned out for some reason… I’m not usually that proud of my work, but considering I very rarely do “location” photos, I think it’s pretty nifty.).

Anyway, I digress! So me and Freya were wondering about the outskirts of the city, and what did we find? An abandoned warehouse. I mean, most of you are probably thinking ’so?’ but I’ve been looking for an abandoned warehouse to shoot in for absolutely AGES. Freya told me it’s usually all locked up but we managed to climb in through a broken window and checked the place out and oh man, it’s AMAZING, we couldn’t believe it. It’s absolutely huge and we haven’t even viewed half of it yet. The only downside to it is the lighting conditions are really poor so we weren’t really prepared and only got a few photos. We were The warehousegoing to go and explore upstairs, and then we heard footsteps coming down the stairs- panicking, me and Freya legged it. She climbed through the window first, and I got her to hold my camera while I climbed through (and almost put my hand through broken glass in the process) and we were getting really scared as we heard the person coming closer and closer and then… it turns out it was a homeless person. XDDDD So I’m assuming there’s squatters in the upstairs part, but we’re hoping it’s just that one rogue woman.

We’re going to go back tomorrow to do a shoot, and try and make the most of the lighting conditions. It’s really dark in there so we either have to use long exposures (which don’t work too well as neither of us have a tripod) or flash which can butcher a shot. :/ But we’ll see, sometimes flash works well. Ideally we would have went back with some guys to protect us just incase, but we can’t wait that long. But we’re going to bring a bag of goodies and some protective gear (like gloves and stuff) so we’re a little more safer. Hopefully we’ll get some good shots and I will post the results of it!

Finally, I just worked out I can add in my own replies to your comments before I publish them, so I will be doing this from thereon. Be sure to check back for responses!

♥: Excited.
♪: Blaqk Audio – On A Friday