So in my last entry I mentioned that I am completely over Ben, and don’t even feel sad or mourn the loss of our friendship anymore either, thats come at a perfect time, considering on Sunday, he finally blocked and deleted me from Facebook, and also removed me from Twitter.
And why did this happen?
Because somebody called him a cunt on Facebook, lololol.
Really though, talk about throwing his toys out of the pram. He’s got off very light in the past 9 months, I did a lot of damage control so as to not make the situation worse than it already is, and this is the first time somebody has insulted him where he could visibly see it, and quite frankly it was deserved. What does he expect, really? People to pat him on the head and tell him what a super special little boy he is? Okay, sure, I might never know now why he decided to just completely eradicate me from his existence, but at this point I don’t really care. I don’t think he has a valid reason, and that he is just a pathetic coward. I’m happy to see the back of him, that said though, I had to get the final word in…
Yeah, it’s immature and childish. But then again, so is he.
I’m pretty broke at the minute. My total income per month isn’t brilliant, and I can scrape by on that, but I’d like more. I figured this would be no problem as I could work enough hours on the checkouts in overtime to get a few more pounds in my pocket. However, when I went to sign up for overtime today, I was informed that they had just employed 15 new checkout workers and so there is literally no overtime, let alone the money I’d like to earn. Pharmacy overtime is due to fizzle out once the holiday season ends. An increase in hours is extremely unlikely as no staff are likely to leave. I can’t find another job as A) jobs are rare, B) I’ve only been at my current job for 3 months so that’d make me a dick to leave right now, C) I don’t think I’ve earnt enough credentials to get myself another pharmacy related job, and D) Any other jobs I’m interested in/capable of doing are likely to be pro-rata or employing on a shift based rota rather than the full 39 hours per week. I can’t get another job on top of the one I’m currently at because I work such complicated times, so really, I’m stuck. I can’t buy anything or improve anything on my flat for the foreseeable future. I’m also really worried, because I was depending on overtime to fund my unpaid holidays (another ‘perk’ of a new job), so I’m really worried about my rent for those months, plus other expenditures. How am I going to be able to afford Christmas presents for my family? How can I afford a coat for winter?
I really hope I can come up with an answer soon.
♥: Stressed
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