And so we roll into 2012. I didn’t celebrate this year, I was going to go for a few drinks in a local pub with some of my friends, but for a start I’d been at work all day, secondly I’m not huge on getting drunk these days, and thirdly, I was piss poor (for reasons you’ll find below). But I had a nice night regardless.
My New Years Resolutions for this year are;
o1. Lose weight.
o2. Buy a freaking wardrobe.
o3. Get a haircut (3 years is long enough without one)
o4. Stop worrying so much.
o5. Accept that I cannot pull off pale lipstick, and embrace the dark.
Optional o6. Meeting a nice boy would be nice… :>
Christmas was fine, went by quickly, narrowly escaped being ill again for it this year by being sick the week before, meaning I had to take some time off work whilst I felt sorry for myself and took as much cold & flu remedies as possible without giving myself liver poisoning. The downside is, as I haven’t been working for my current job for 2 years or more (so close & yet so far), I had to take my time off unpaid, so I am currently very, very skint. It’s going to take a couple of pay days to get myself comfortable money wise again. Still, that’s life.
After whining and stomping my feet about not being able to lose any weight, I did manage to lose 2lbs, however I think with the re-introduction of mince pies and other festive food, it’s safe to assume that those 2lbs have definitely gone back on. But it’s fine, one all the leftover Christmas food has gone, I’m going to be very strict with myself, and I also hope to introduce a gym membership into the mix and actually go. So in theory, this time next year, I’ll be so slim and toned, if somebody shot me, I’d be able to deflect the bullets with my rock hard abs. HAH. But seriously, it is something I have to do for myself. I felt so good about myself when I lost that tiny little bit of weight, and (coincidental, I’m sure) I was hit on by an attractive man on a night out, which I now regret not following through with. However this all came to an abrupt end when I saw the photos of myself from that night (the one on the left being the only passable photo) and now I’ve gone back to feeling shit about myself. Ahhhh.
I’m still very much in a all work, no play mode. I find it very difficult to relax when I’m not at work nowadays, I think a lot of it is to do with shift work, a prime example of this being finishing work at 9pm, with an 8am start the very next day. When I wake up, I never, ever feel refreshed from a nights sleep, and if I get up before 10am, it nigh-on kills me. I prefer to keep my days off now for lazy days, or visiting my parents. I did make plans to see some people here and there during days off, but the last two people I have arranged to meet up with, both just bailed with no warning. So now I can’t be bothered. I’d rather stay in my pajama’s and watch Coach Trip anyway.
Still, despite everything, I hope to get back to my usual chipper self soon enough. I am meeting up with one of my best friends, Emma tomorrow for a catch up, and getting a Café Nero’s white chocolate mocha before I really do have to cut out everything that is remotely delicious.
On a side note, I finally started playing Assassin’s Creed: Revelations today. As always, the game is gorgeous. But what on EARTH have they done to Altair/Ezio/Desmond’s faces?! They all have beady eyes and buck teeth now. Not a sexy look. D:
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