Posts Tagged ‘Nash’

147. baby stay with me, i love it.

Sunday, October 17th, 2010

With so much aggro going on with Ben last year, I don’t think I even mentioned that my brother had a little baby girl with his girlfriend. I think I’ve mentioned babysitting for her once about 6 months ago. Oops! This is why I need to start writing more often, I end up wittering on about the big, ranty picture, and forget about small details, such as becoming an auntie. :| But there you go…

Anyway! It was her first birthday yesterday. I was at work until closing so I wasn’t able to go to her birthday party. I bought her a little pink onesie though as a birthday gift (money is of the essence these days) so I was there in gift form, which is the most important part. I figured that whilst I wasn’t actually at her birthday, it is a good excuse to include a picture of me and her, taken about 3 months ago. She’s got incredible eyes!

And now, a rant.

I have become a square.

I’m not even joking. I have no social life, nobody to be sociable with, and my home life isn’t that exciting either. :| My days now basically consist of waking up, showering, eating, playing Animal Crossing for the DS, going to work, coming home, eating, playing Left 4 Dead, then going to bed. Repeat six more times, and then you have my week down to a T.  I’m 21! This is a pretty sad life for a 21 year old. I mean, I don’t mind too much really because I’m quite happy in my own company.. but on paper it is pretty sad.

My 3 best friends don’t even live in Norwich anymore. One doesn’t even live in the same country. :| I work most evenings, and I don’t drink, so my other friends don’t really want to go out with me anymore. I guess I’m not fun if I’m not drunk and making a show of myself. I don’t really know anybody at work, outside of the pharmacy, and don’t even know how to make friends with other people at work, so I guess now is a good a time as any to try and ‘fix’ me and my confidence. Relationship wise, I think I’m happy to be alone right now. So I can focus on my career (something I thought I’d NEVER say!) , save up some money, do some of the stuff I want to do, and reevaluate things later on.

With that said though, I do have 10 days off at the beginning of November, so I’m going to take that opportunity to go see Toni in Bury. A mini adventure, if you will!

P.S I forgot to mention I have been at the pharmacy for 6 months now and I don’t totally hate it. So I may have found my calling! Plus I finally have my discount card. Sweet.

♥: Tired.
♪: Dan Balan – Johanna (Shut Up!)

133. do you remember the first time?

Sunday, April 18th, 2010

Word! It’s been a pretty busy fortnight so I’ll try and recap on everything that I’ve done in the past fortnight;

So last Thursday (8th) I had my interview for the job I mentioned in my previous post. I think it went really well!  The interview was held with a different person than expected, which through me off a little bit, but overall it was okay, it felt much less like an inquisition than the previous job interview I had gone for in summer. I was told at the interview that it’s very hard to score an interview at their company, so to even have got to that stage was an achievement, which increased my confidence and I think that helped in the interview too. I left feeling very positive.

On the Saturday (10th) I met up with Emma and her friend Miyuki, who was staying with her and showing her around Norwich for the weekend. We went for lunch at a resturant called ‘Sakura’, which is a Japanese 焼き肉 (‘Yakiniku’ or Barbeque) restaurant where you are given bite sized portions of food and you cook it on a grill that is in the centre of the table. Because you’re cooking the food yourself, it’s pretty basic food (grilled meat/fish/vegetables with sides of rice, miso soup, pickles etc.) which some people may not like, but I think it makes up for that in ‘fun’ factor. It’s definitely more of a social event plus it’s fun and cheap (my meal cost £6 altogether, including a drink) so I’d definitely go again. It was nice to catch up with Emma for a bit and I’m looking forward to seeing her in June. After lunch with Emma, I had to go home as I was helping to babysit my six-month-old niece Natasha (I call her Nash for short) for the night. I was looking forward to helping look after Nash, but oh my God what an eyeopener it was. Babies are so demanding! They’re always farting, pooing, (sometimes) crying and puking. More specficially… puking on me. Up until then I’d wanted three children, all within a two or three year age gap of each other. Totally thinking otherwise, now. They are so high matainence that I would wait at least 5 years inbetween now (so whilst one is at school, I can deal with the other, ha!) and maybe only have 2 instead. I’m a very clean person and I don’t like being dirty so I don’t think I could stand being a parent in that aspect. But I suppose when it’s your own kid you don’t mind too much, do you? I still wouldn’t exactly be thrilled, though.

Now onto this week! On Monday lunchtime…. I got a call telling me that I got the job! :D So now the job is mine I can say a little bit more about it; It’s at Sainsburys, but I’m not working on the tills, it is a pharmacy position. Initially I am just a customer assistant but I will be given the oppourtunity to train up so that I can have more pharmaceutical responsibilities and I hope I will be lucky enough to be offered the oppourunity to train and learn a Pharmacy NVQ and make a career out of this as I’ve been interested in a medical career ever since I was in hospital last year. But we’ll see. It’s just early days at the moment, I am only working part time in the evenings! But that’s fine, I didn’t want to rush straight into a full time job, after having difficulties with anxiety and stress, I worry a full time would be jumping from the frying pan into the fire. At least this way I can go at my own pace, and as I build my confidence again, work my way up to more hours, full time, and then hopefully a career. It’s funny to think though, I never imagined ever becoming a (potential) pharmacist for a career! But I like the sound of it. :)  I start my induction this Friday so spare me a thought if you will!

This Thursday, I decided I was sick of my hair (again!) and I wanted it darker, so I have dyed it what the bottle described as ‘Intense Dark Brown’ …it’s so intense it’s virtually black, haha. But I like it! I wish it was my natural hair colour. :( You can see a picture of it on the left. I’ve blacked out my eyes because the photo had really bad camera shake and it made my eyes look pretty much psychotic. D: In the evening I met with Freya for a few drinks. I don’t see Freya all that often now because she goes to university at Brighton, so like with Emma I only see her when she’s back for holidays etc. But it was good seeing her; what I love most about out friendship is that we can go for months and months without speaking to each other, but we can always pick up where we left off, and theres never any need to try hard. She has been a real catharsis for me over the past few months whilst I have tried to deal with the Ben situation as best I can, and it was something she said to me which really struck a chord with me when we were drinking on Thursday – she reads this blog and she commented that she read that I felt I was alone with everything that had been going on and one of the main reasons she got back in touch is because she knew I wasn’t alone, and she wanted me to know that. And that was really, really sweet. So seeing that she reads this – I love you, and thank you for everything, seriously. <3

On Friday (getting there now!) I went shopping with my mum for her birthday presents, but also to go to have a meal to celebrate me getting my job. We went to Threeways, which is a Lebonese restuarant. Unlike most restaurants we tend to go to, it’s not a chain restuarant, and is family ran. I’ve never had Lebonese food before but OH.MY.GOD. the food is amazing! I’m so in love with Lebonese food right now. Me and my mum shared a meal for two (though it could have easily fed three) consisting of chargrilled chicken, hummous, garlic sauce, Lebonese pickles, Lebonese salad and baklava for dessert. All the food tasted so fresh, it was reasonably cheap and it was pretty healthy stuff too. TOTALLY comes first for favourite food now. If you’ve never tried it before, I’d seriously recommend it. HUNGRY I HAVE BECOME! Also I finally sorted out iTunes, like 5 months after reformating my computer. It’s nice to have my music back. :|

I think that’s all for now, finally! Haha. I should have another biggish update soon. Await it.

♥: Itchy.
♪: 2 Bullet – Pray For Me