Today I went hunting for feature wallpaper and suitable curtains for my room back at my parents, as it looks like soon I will be living back there as a permenant fixture, for… the foreseeable future at least. I am probably too mentally retarded to cope on my own again. Let me tell you, when you are looking for something specific, it’s almost impossible to find what you’re looking for. I guess that statement replies to other things too, and not just wallpaper. After around 4 hours of searching, and lots of looking at paint charts, online sites and catalogues, I think I know what I’m going to do with my room. It will be nice to sit in a room that isn’t four walls of magnolia.
Now, I whinge.
Seven months ago, a guy who I had been seeing on and off (his choice not mine) for just over a year, we’ll call him ‘C’, (despite most people being able to figure out who he is) decided to do a Ben and cut contact, removing me from Facebook, blocking on msn, not responding to texts etc. I was a little put out at first, but seeing that at that time I wanted to get back together exclusively with Ben, I wasn’t that bothered by it. 3 months later, just after Ben decided to cut me out (seriously, what is it with me?), C suddenly pops up on msn. Of course I wasn’t exactly welcoming him back with open arms, and his reasons for doing so was “he had a lot going on, and decided to give himself some distance from people.” By that he pointed out that I wasn’t the only one who he cut out, so that makes it completely okay. I believe this, as his friend count on Facebook dropped considerably the day he cut me out and I looked at his profile to figure what on Earth was going on. Personally, I think it’s stupid to cut everyone out in the first place, why not just say “things are gonna be hectic for a while, do you mind if we cool things off/not hang out for a while?”. Too smart for a bloke, I suppose. Since he spoke to me on msn, we spoke now and then. I noticed his friend count on Facebook slowly going up again, but I recieved no friendship request. So after a month or so, I asked him if he was planning on adding me back. His reply was ”Is there any reason to to?”, to which I responded “Is there any reason not to?” so he backed down and said he would add me… to which he did not. But I saw that coming due to his reluctance to add me back. I was too stubborn to add him myself, but why should I? I wasn’t the one who removed myself in the first place.
This evening however, I caved. We had been getting on rather well as of late, and figured he accept after 4 months of being back in touch. OH! How wrong I was. I checked back later and he had declined. Tool.
I realise that it is somewhat of a childish thing to get pent up about… but it’s a principle thing. He probably has people on there who he barely speaks to people, or went to school with and added to be polite. Me? I’m supposed to be a mate, well, we’ve done more than what mates do, and that apparently doesn’t warrant any acknowledgement. It’s not like I leave sonnets of love on his wall, or do too much at all really, and if it’s a case of hiding something he doesn’t want me to find out… I couldn’t care less anyway. It’s not like I wouldn’t be surprised in the slightest. I just think it’s so childish and pathetic. But that sums him up pretty well actually.
Oh, men. 
♥: I think I might become a lesbian.
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