5 days until I go back to Sixth Form. Fuck.
I can’t afford to buy any clothes to at least attempt to look nice for the first day back. Fuck fuck.
Another year spent with the chavs, plus NEW chavs. Fuck fuck FUCK.
I’m not ready to go back, not in the slightest.
I guess it’s because the past 2 years I’ve had 3 months off, and this year I’ve only had a month and a half, and it’s gone by in the blink of an eye. There’s certain aspects I’ll like about going back; I’ll be kept busy, I’ll get to see (whats left of) my friends, the oppourtunity to make new ones, and I’ll be back studying photography, and believe me, I’ll be back studying with a vengeance. Usually I’m the most uncertain person when it comes to my photography, but *I* think I’ve improved drastically over the holidays, and anyone who disagrees, to be frank, is either A) completely retarded in understanding any form of photography, B) a dickhead.
However, these also many negative aspects to going back, such as ICT (in general), sucky teachers, probably the shittiest timetable known to man, the fact I probably won’t have Mr Theobald as my photography teacher this year which means I have to either re-aquaint myself with Miss Stratford, or get to know a brand new teacher, neither of which seem appealing, as it’s taken me until now to really get to know Mr T enough to express my ideas to him without worrying what he’d think, etc. There’s also the fact that almost ALL of my friends have left now for uni, and while a few of them will still be here, they won’t be THERE, and most importantly of all… I have until December to decide whether to persue Uni, and 9 months to decide what the hell I want to do after I leave. Ugh. It makes me feel queasy just thinking about it. Shitty fuck bollocks.
 In another news, I’m meeting up with Emma for a couple of drinks tomorrow and then we’re going to have an “American night in”, consisting of junk food, girly chat and movies. Emma’s moving to Preston mid-September for University, and of all those leaving, I’m going to miss her the most. Still, she’ll be here during vacations and I can always go and visit her (which provides as a holiday for me too) so it’s not the end of the world.
I’ve just managed to successfully bum myself out. Luckily Mock the Week is on in half an hour.
♥: Tired and/or bummed.
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